Totally Fell Off….

It only takes one thing to take me off track and I don’t even remember what that one thing was!  Someone brought to my attention today that they stumbled across this blog and asked how I was doing.  Kinda embarassed since I have made ZERO attempts.  I’m ready again.  I’m not going to get all crazy with it but, I’m going to take baby steps.  Maybe take some walks, lower my calorie intake, and just some other things.  If losing weight for my reunion isn’t enough, I need to lose it for my health.  I was at the doctor’s this week and last and I have high blood pressure!  WHAT?!  I have never had high blood pressure!!  OMG!  Not ok….Since, I’m not ready to die, I have to fix this ASAP!  I’m not getting any younger and the older I get, the harder it will get.

The time is now!

Couldn’t Help it!

So far, so good. I weighed myself today. I couldn’t help it. I just wanted to know. Anyhow, today’s number was 276.9! Woohoo. 105 more pounds to go. Ha ha I mean it’s not funny but it kinda is.

It was HARD!

Even though, I said I wouldn’t weigh myself today, I did!  I couldn’t help it.  I had a crazy weekend so I wanted to see where I was at.  I weighed myself this morning the scale said 278.7!  So i lost weight from last week.  I’m sure if I would have tried harder over the weekend, the number would be better!  Oh well, it works for me!

Weekends…

It’s just sooo much easier when it is the weekday.  Everything is routine during the week.  The weekend comes around and I feel like everything goes down the drain!  AHH….So I think I am going to start weighing myself on fridays since Monday is RIGHT after the weekend.  It seems like I am doing fine but, then I wake up Saturday morning!

Temptations…

According to Websters Online Dictionary, the definition of temptation is 1 : the act of tempting or the state of being tempted especially to evil : enticement. That’s what the people at my work were doing! I know it’s because I used to be the one that would always agree to eat out. I would agree to share something with you. But, they were really getting feisty when I told them that I was ok. In the morning, one of the girls asked me if I wanted to share a HUGE burrito with her. I told her that I was trying to be healthy and I’m good. She said, “it’s just half.” That’s the mentality that got me here to begin with! Sorry, tangent! I said,” Well let me look at it.” I read the nutrition content and said I’m ok. She got all huffy and puffy. I went to the break room and made myself some cereal instead. She ends up not even eating her burrito. Then she IMs me to say she wants cereal. So I offered her some cereal. All is good now…

Ok, it wasn't THAT big and it was one of those microwavable ones!

Lunch time comes around and this guy said he wants a salad from the mall. Well, if you never had a salad from the Brea Mall, it’s like the BEST thing EVER. There is juuuust enough of ALL the ingredients. Along with not wanting to eat out, I am also trying to save money. I can’t do that if I go buy a $7 salad when I can just eat a lean cuisine for $1.77! Plus, I’m sure all those ingredients on the salad aren’t that good for you! Anyways, he made a big ol deal about it. I told him I would go along for the ride. He said it’s ok and ended up warming up his Healthy Choice.

I had will power today and I said no! Go me!

Day 1

Not bad but the first day isn’t ever really bad right?  We are ALL excited about everything!

• I didn’t make it to the gym this morning
• I drank my milk
• I drank my green tea
• I had a lean cuisine
• Ate my salad with FAT FREE dressing….yum! haha
• I went to the gym after work
• I ate before 7

So far so good right?

Hopefully it continues on!

First Weigh-In….

Drum roll please……281.5!

OMG!  That is almost the highest weight.  What did I do?  How did I get there?!?!  I am only 5’6.  If I could lose 100 of that, that would be super!

New Year, New Goals?

What happened?

I don’t know what is different this year from all the other years but, I’m tired of being the “fat” friend, “fat” sister, and “fat” daughter.  I am ready for a change and this blog will help me document the journey.

Obviously, the "fat" sister

Clearly, the "fat" friend

Many questions go through my head before I start:

• How did I get to this point?
• How come I didn’t do anything about it sooner?
• Why now?
• What is going to be different this time?

The thing is, I KNOW the answer to all these questions.  I got here because in high school, I did martial arts 4 days a week 2-3 hours a day.  I got to college, stopped training, started partying, and having late night food stops.  I was probably in denial that I was gaining weight but, I knew I was.  I just didn’t think it would get this bad!  I have gotten to the point where I didn’t know how to stop!

I didn’t do anything sooner because I was in denial and when someone tells me to do something, I go the other direction.  My mom always told me how fat I am even when I felt like I wasn’t.  So in my head, I just said “let me give her something to talk about.”  Of course, there are times that I have tried to lose weight but, I could never stay on track.  I would lose weight and just gain it back.  I have never been the type of person to put myself out there and talk about what is killing me inside.  But, if I’m ready to change things now, I might as well let the world know!  I always wanted to lose weight for ME and not anyone else and so when someone tells me I need to lose weight, I feel like I am doing it for THEM.

Why now?  My TEN year reunion is THIS year.  I don’t have kids, husband, PhD, etc. so I definitely DO NOT want to go back being the one that “got fat.”  I am going to turn 28 THIS year!  If not now, then when?  So, I’m ready…

This time, I have a plan that I am actually putting down in writing so that MAYBE it can hold me accountable.  Feel free to check in to see how I do!!

My plan includes:

• Not eating after 7pm.
• Going to bed early, so that I can wake up early to go to the gym
• Going to the gym with a girl I work with when we get off for 1 hour
• Not eating out when I am at work.  This is going to be HARD since they LOVE eating out.
• Buying fat free food, watching my calories and fat intake
• Drinking 3 glasses of 2% milk.  Per The Biggest Loser, drinking 3 glasses a day helps drop the pounds.
• Eating a healthy breakfast.

I can do it right?  Tomorrow morning January 5, 2009, I am going to get on the scale and I will post it here for ALL to see!  Ahh….no one knows my real weight, especially my driver’s license!  haha  I actually don’t even know what it is!